My son,
Throughout years of searching for a diagnosis for your health issues, opportunities for holding became few and far between, and fraught with challenge. There were times when you clung to me sobbing in the depths of despair, and others where you pushed me away in rage. Eventually I stopped instigating affection on the most part as I could see it was too distressing for you. Throughout all of this time though, we did continue to work as a team, seeking help and knocking on new doors until we found the right team of specialists to diagnose and support you. Since then, your confidence and well being continues to grow.. Now when I hold you it is welcomed and reciprocated, and our relationship is maturing. The times where you instigate and hug and tell me you love me mean so much to me. Our bond as a mother and child was surely tested, but it could never be broken.
All of my love, your mum.
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